Dear Life, Im really ticked off…
July 19th, 2010 | 
Author: The weirdest thing about me being on the road believe it or not, is that I am actually becoming more tame and normal. You’d think that living on the road, touring, being in a different town every day would make you crazier, or wilder or at least more out going. But no, somehow I am always the exception to a rule.
I feel SO boring.
I like to talk about cooking,the music industry, and bitching about legal problems I shouldn’t be bitching about.
I suppose after being beaten up over and over and over and over by bad luck these last 3 months didn’t help my personality.
Im becoming more dull.
Id rather not say anything than write about how many obstacles we’re hopping over.And, I feel like talking about venues,and food, and accommodations is a waste of time because I honestly don’t want to talk about it, and you honestly don’t really care to read about it.
But if I write exactly whats on my mind, then that probably wouldn’t make too good of a reading material because team Geri X (aka: label, publicist, manager, etc) would come in for the rescue and pep talk me into writing about more positive things and keeping an uplifting journal topic.
I feel myself turning boring, which is making me want to act up. Like a child, which I still actually and literally am. I’ve got my youth, but Im not using it to my fullest advantage.
Im too nice,too respectful, too accommodating, too caring and way too responsible-early 20’s going on early 50’s over here, I tell you.
I’ve got awesome communication skills but I almost hate it.
I wish I could be an asshole sometimes,and do stupid things, and have boundless fun,and not think about the absolute outcome of every action, but Im too responsible.
I sure look like I would be wild.
Don’t ever judge a book by its cover.
Im a good example.
Dear Life,
Im living you to the fullest extent that my responsible little brain is letting me.Please help me be more open to fucking shit up and having a good time. Im not an old lady yet, so I shouldn’t be acting like one.
thanks
ticked off
Geri X
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Geri, just try being an a$$hole for a day. It’s therapeutic and people are less likely to f*** with you when you’re less lenient and accepting. Take it from a professional a$$hole who’s been on countless tours, dealt with a bunch of labels/industry douchebags and still managed to make it out alive and in one piece. I’m probably just jaded from the inevitable “business side” that comes with being a working musician but who isn’t these days? I’m proud of what you and Greg are doing and have accomplished thus far. Keep on keepin’ on and don’t take no crap from nobody!
-J
PS: Jack & Gracie say, “Woof”.
“I’ve given my life to a band on the road, I’ve made my mistakes and good golly they’ve showed, but I live for today because tomorrows far away and when it comes ’round, I won’t know…You ain’t got nothing if you ain’t got soul,ain’t got nothin’ til you rock n’ roll.” I’ve been where you are and the only thing that has kept me going is my love of music and my cat. People come and go in your life and places and things will be remembered or forgotten but you can’t change what you feel when you feel it. I’d just try to write songs about it and as long as there is even one person who wants to hear you when you sing then take that feeling and run with it. Be safe and hope to see you back here in Tampa someday…..
First, you took the first step in following your dream which, many people never had the nerve to do. You are doing it in a arena where, unfortunately, to make it big is more of a combination of luck, being in the right place at the right time, and having the right connections more so then having the skills. Also, it’s a living where everyone you deal with is trying to make a buck off of your trials and tribulations.(and sometimes their buck is bigger than the one you are making). They are there when things are going great but when you are down, try to find them then.I am sure, almost every day, there is a moment in that day where you could ask yourself, “Why the fuck do I do this?”. You do it for that one fan who steps up at almost every show and says “You’re friggen awesome!” and for the fact that you know not only do YOU HAVE THE SKILLS but you also have what few others have, that God given natural ability that makes you just a shade different/better then the rest. And for the people on the road, that when times are feeling tough, who are there to either carry you over that rough spot, kick your azz over that rough spot or, piss you off enough to make you stomp down that rough spot. And though you think you’re a tuff young lady who is feeling old, you have enough loyal fans who recognize great talent when they see it, and will have no problem kicking your azz if you even think about quitting on your music. If you want to quit something, quit smoking, if not for yourself, do it for us, your fans. We love your voice and we would love to enjoy your music and we want to hear both for MANY years to come…so, suck it up soldier and keep doing what you know best MUSIC!!!!!
Hmmm…Did you think for a moment how you would feel about your life if you were calm (instead of ticked off), that is????
You would be a perfectly balanced, going with the flow; everyone’s likable but no ones’ favorite person.
You would write relaxed quiet tunes, akin to elevators’ music.
You would have a peaceful, quiet, still, unruffled, serene, relaxed, calm life.
I am trying to picture your audience.
Really?!?
It might be a good place to visit when agitated but I doubt you can actually stand it for a long time.
Mainly because you are not woven from the particular fabric which makes for this type of person. I think it is a bit late to become one.
My take on you being a jerk for a change – need to get rid of your conscience first. I would file this desire into the “wanna-be” section as well.
All that really matters in your life will tick you off (luckily). That is how you know you it still matters.
So it appears that you will breathe and talk and suffer music until you live it. It is a blessing and a curse, and it looks like you have no choice, Geri
No matter what, please keep the music and cooking running. You do either GREAT!
If you REALLY want to quit on something (Thank you, Richard!!) – quit on smoking!!!
????????? Geri
I would never think of you as being boring-I would say you are wise beyond your years. The thing Phillip and I really love about you and Greg is that you take your music seriously but not yourselves. It’s OK to allow yourself to “let go” sometimes-that’s part of being human. I would say you should keep your kind, sweet spirit because from what I can see the world has produced a bumper crop of mean people.
Thanks again for giving all of us your beautiful music and for having the courage/guts/strength to get in front of friends and strangers and share it. Hope to see you all back in Florida sometime soon.
Peace,
Kirby (and Phillip)